Tuesday, February 06, 2007

playing russian roulette with my future

ugh. week three. twelve weeks to go. i seriously don't know if i'll make it dear blog readers. it's gonna be a test. research for decision making (i.e. stats for librarians) is the dullest class i've EVER been in. EVER. PERIOD. the woman who is teaching it should've hung up her cardigan a long, long time ago. seriously, she may be the oldest living librarian in the state of ohio. i think i may even stop attending class as i really don't see the point in it. lobster girl is in there and our note passing makes for some enjoyment but the clock ticks very slowly during this 2 hour & 45 minute class.

another class is done totally online. syllabus, lectures, assignments - they're all sent via email. have i started anything for this class? no. have i even read the damn syllabus? no. this is not a good approach i'm sure but my motivation really seems to be lacking. i just can't get going. on anything.

the archives class? eh. not bad actually. the long commute is silly but we get to take a few field trips and i'd rather sit through that than listen to the 108 year-old librarian discuss the perils of having a bubble boy son. christ.

i decided to take the route of writing a final research paper instead of doing a practicum or writing a thesis. piece o' cake i thought. no big deal i thought. i'll get this done in a weekend i thought. ha! no dice. step one: find an advisor. well, i did that. then the advisor began to totally freak me out by rattling off examples and great ideas and how and where and when i should get started. how, when, and where? now is the answer. ugh. i hate now. i don't want to do anything now.

so, stay tuned as my procrastination and utter avoidance leads me down the road of destruction and despair. if i was a betting woman i'd bet the farm on me going completely crazy before this semester is over.

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